Are you doing the things that make you happy? Enjoying the presence of those you love?
I can tell you this right now, you can never really be doing too much of these things. I, myself have lacked in this area for a very long time. I have overworked myself, served myself and made every excuse to keep pushing myself farther. In return my life has been full of "why don't we get to hang out anymore?", "when is there time for me?", "Can you write me into your schedule so we can go grab lunch?"
These are things you really don't want to hear but need to hear when you suddenly go missing. I fully immerse myself in one part of my life so deeply that I forget to put down the shovel that dug this whole and now I need help getting out. Sometimes those comments remind you to snap out of the perfection you can never build. This is a reminder that I also am not taking time for myself, to enjoy the people I love, the things I love doing to cook for myself, to take a moment for me and listen to the birds. I am learning how to "do you" thing.
I wonder what other people do to unwind, to become human again.
I say this all delirious with the flu, but seriously being human again sounds awesome ( zombie feels)
So some of my goals this year happen to be,
1. Connect- Connect with people who help build who I am
2. Work- Work with limits and goals are not meant to be so high you can't reach them but you find a smarter path than jumping up and down hoping you catch the tail.
3. Breathe- Breathe fast, slow, hard, Breathe accordingly, it's all oxygen and you can get yourself through anything.
Ultimately I am going to be paying myself in time. Allowing time for the things that matter the most, balance the scales and putting eggs in different baskets. No matter what your journey is be sure you are allowing yourself happiness, strength, determination.
I too, struggle with a balance but am learning to be the best version of me. I will allow myself to be human, I mean I am one well oiled machine but I must fill my cup to be able to pour to others. Just as you must remember to be yourself, strengthen yourself and then share. This is my reminder to pay myself, I must put a penny in my own doorway.
Sure there are moments that you hope to forget, but in the moments you hope to never forget time stands still. You stand still. Nothing in that moment tames your breathing, uncenters your soul or makes your heart slow down. These are the moments to live for. The older I get the more moments like these exist. I stopped counting the times the world stopped within my mind but started to live, to search, and truly center myself on living.
Twenty three days into 2019 and I have already done things I have never done before, I have been places I have never been before, I have eaten things I have never eaten before. Hell, I even put my body in the largest body of water on earth. So far 2019 has taken me to a mindset of going, doing and by God willing I am laughing and I am happy. January 2018 when I took my self portraits they were about forgetting the pain of loosing my grandmother, about shunning myself into a life I didn't want to change but drastically did. I spent the year depressed, wanting to be alone and worrying about things I couldn't control. My heart grew in this time since I spent very little time using it to what I needed to be using it for. So after a long hard year for me internally I still grew, I changed.
Just a few weeks ago I was asked to go on a trip with my friend to California...... Sure that sounds like fun but I cannot just up and go, Well that is what I wanted to say. I wanted to say how I couldn't afford it, fathom leaving for that long without my family. But my husband stood beside me as this question of travel was presented, without batting an eye he answered for me YES SHE WANTS TO GO. In that moment my very first plane ticket was bought and I was sent packing, literally. I looked at him with a little fear of what our finances would look like of me just up and going somewhere with 3 weeks to plan and save. To him it never matters. I always looked and searched for a part of me that could feel that way. I often sit, plan, write and worry about things over and over until I either talk myself out of it or change my mind on what I wanted to do completely in fear of my failure. NO, not this man I married. He is a doer, money doesn't matter. What matters is your opportunity, your life, your legacy you hold. GO AND DO. I had no chance to back out of this trip and I am glad. Sure I spent part of my trip sick and unable to photograph some lovely ladies while I was over there but God has his plans and maybe that day I was meant to miss home, miss the man who helped me leave and go in the first place. The next day, oh I wasn't held back as soon as I was able to move around and feel better I explored.
,I watched children play on the beach, I watched them buy balloons at the mall and ride the carousel. In these moments I felt so guilty for leaving, for not bringing my own two littles with me. I stopped myself in those moments and said no, I am not going to feel guilty but explore these parts before them and bring them back and show them all I have found. I am proud to have walked these places and have a full mindset to bring them to experience the same things at Newport beach, to go to the South Coast plaza and visit the Disney store. The most amazing thing is the sunset, the west coast sunset.
Now onto the next day and final day left to explore I finally got to have time with my friend, whom I traveled with. She spent most of her time in California at a conference, learning, growing and creating friendships of a lifetime but the last exploring day she spent time with me. We had our day, our day as old long term friends looking to conquer the world, and believe me some day she might .
We both took the opportunity of this warmer place to let the sun warm our souls. We spent the brisk morning heading out 10 miles deep into the ocean searching for life of all kinds, whales were top on the list yet they eluded us and that is okay because we will go and explore looking for them again. Truthfully if it wasn't so cold I probably would have became a mermaid out in that beautiful water. We did get to see a ton of white sided dolphins and some very cute sea lions. I have seen dolphins swim in the ocean before, no not this ocean but I was more interested in the houses in the hills. The literal THOUSANDS of houses we passed. I was curious of the lives these people lived. I wondered if they weren't born here what made them come, what made them stay. Though I love my home in Kentucky I never stop wondering about the lives of others, how they got to be the people they are.
As our day went on and we headed back inland the sea lions living their best life really made our water exploration a more fun experience. They were so lazy and spunky at the same time. I would almost say they are my spirit animal but I couldn't be this cute.
Brittney and I went on to take in iconic California wines, we know nothing absolutely nothing about wines really. We just consume on a good day, a rough day and any day that ends with day. No just kidding... maybe. But we found a place called Orange coast winery, We walked in through the back which means it is a very swanky establishment in Cali. We have no idea what to order we just want to taste these wines. You can't go home without indulging in "Napa Valley' type rituals. There we met a gentleman named Ken, he told us some of his life stories and background. He treated us with a never ending glass and sparked our conversations of entrepreneurship. He spoke of Kentucky highly as if we didn't know what we have. I may never see Ken again but he was a California face that helped spark inspiration of new things to come. I think Brittney and I felt the same, we thought the same in these couple hours. We did come home with bigger ideas and goals to finish.
With insight and pockets of hope for who we could go on to be we packed up and was about to head home. These few days made me appreciate all the things I can accomplish with a team of people who there to help, my team who are there to encourage me to do what I want to do no matter how crazy or big. I am so glad that I have certain people in my life that has never gave up on me and who is ready to help me go and do, those who never think it is out of reach but who are ready to help. All in all two girls with big hearts and determined minds traveled 2000 miles away from home, learned some new things to carry forever and found the explorer inside that is ready to climb.
Here is to nanner pudding ( only Brittney knows) and dreams beyond that front porch life. Never stop.
No need to be worried or stressed out over a photo session. It is best to stay calm and go with the flow. Let life happen, after all that is the best way. I am going to share with you the 5 P's To a great Photo session! Let's get started with number one!
Plan Ahead, Yep get out that calendar and schedule months in advance. Not only will this allow you to plan exactly what you want in your session. This will allow the photographer to give you a good date that works on both schedules.
Pick outfits, OH THE POSSIBILITIES
How do you imagine yourself? Cool and Funky, Classic formal, Vintage, You can really go with so many options but pick one or two for your photo time. Be sure to coordinate the family well Here is our Pinterest link for recommended combos : https://www.pinterest.com/dynamiteimage/what-to-wear/
Seriously a whole board of colors and ideas, its pretty amazing
Pack the Snacks, I am serious. Coming from a foodie the Hangry little ones or big ones in this case. Food can help tide over until the next meal. Packing water, Gummy snacks, a bag of chips anything to have intermittently especially for the little ones can really make or break a session.
Plan with the sun! Schedule your session for golden hour right before sunset. This will allow for beautiful outdoor session photos that will make your images all warm and cozy. Below are a few more examples of letting that sun rule the time.
Last but not least, actually the most important is to Purpose for the shoot.
What kind of vibe do you want during your session, bubbly, happy, moody, serious and sensual? Be sure to purpose the best location for how you want the session to feel. Plan your clothing to match the purpose of the shoot.
If you are purposing the session for a new family photo to hang in the living room be sure to plan to coordinate with your decor and color tones within your home. For pops of color to really draw the viewers eyes to the image do so with some articles of clothing or a fun colorful location.
BONUS P PINTEREST
Pin your ideas on an idea board of the mood and color tones you enjoy and share them with your photographer. Be sure to make the session specific to your family and enjoy the whole process
Despite the news with the terrible tragedies I just try to pray for and hope they go away, despite all the things brewing in the sea I still feel a sense of blessed moments.
I can't get over how many opportunities I have to see people in their happiest moments, their biggest memories. Within my heart I know this is what I was meant to do. I am meant to witness these joyous occasions for the babies birthdays, Christmas events, Engagements and Weddings, all the photos as everyone gets older and those smiles get bigger. So yeah excuse me as I am an over emotional person. I truly feed on these sweet emotions to drive my life.
Photography is more than clicking a button and forget about all the business side of it, but for me it is a way of life. All the emotions, senses within an image. I am often reminded of the little things that bring a smile, the small moments that pass so quickly but write a story in our hearts. I am searching for the light in which a moment is defined and perfectly documented. I am in that moment far longer than most. I see, feel and relive those moments behind my desk. To document is to truly see the beauty of all that is presented in our Earth. A strong feeling of thankfulness is within me and I can't wait to be there for so much more.
What a strange but cool thing to witness...
I watched the kids in their excitement as they wondered through their solar glasses on what exactly is happening to the sun. I tried to answer the best way a could. I tried to photograph accordingly without professional equipment as I didn't want to risk frying a sensor in my DSLR cameras.
The sun changed, the air got cooler and the color changes in the atmosphere were something like the twilight zone. This was something different to reflect on from the normal day to day (especially for a Monday) All in all I there was a sense of difference as My kiddos and I sat next to some people we knew and others that we didn't, discussing how amazing it is to be a part of something on this ordinary day. Just looking around and hearing the voices exclaim their favorite parts of the change was more than I expected from the eclipse. In an instant in my heart I thought how so many people just like us all slowed down, or even stopped in that moment. We all looked to the heavens to witness a rare but beautiful not so ordinary occurrence. It is moments like these that define people who are no longer strangers but defines our unity, our likeness that we see in another. We are all under the same sun, the same moon.
I am blessed to see more than just the sun hiding for a few minutes but to witness the fellowship, how we join in days to enjoy our experiences on Earth!
Feel Playing in creeks, following the sun and seeing so many smiles is enough to effect change. Change in the way you see details and how closely you pay attention to the things we call life. Busy season with sessions is in full swing and we are about to switch up to the Fall Mode pretty soon. We here in the Carwile home are transitioning out of Summer mode and back into school mode. So yeah I am passing myself coming and going. This new website also needed to go up and I feel like the little one in the creek, soak and wet but full of life. I decided to start blogging and letting you in on a little bit of me that goes into this photography life.
2018 seems to be coming just as fast as 2017 has flown. I can't wait to see what comes in the upcoming year as well. Feel free to come visit this page and comment with some of your stories along the way. I am truly blessed to see you all even if sometimes it's virtually!