The Summer days will still be with us for a little while but our Summer break of laughter, travel and more memories is soon going to turn into school schedules, homework and full backpacks. I do look forward to my babies going on to the new year and with confidence of their journey's they pocketed through the 75 days of full throttle to dos and hope to dos. I just always have a sense of hesitation, the wish for a few more weeks to squeeze in the love to really watch them grow and their faces light up. Everything we do I try to look at it as if my children are remembering it. I want to know what their memories will hold and if they will tell their stories of their childhood over and over again to their children. I want to know what their fast being hearts yearn for and what I could do better to keep their magic going.
Summer is a time of exploring a time of families and campfires. I know we still have more trips and things on our list of things we want to do, but I enjoy the spontaneous right now sort of things that organically happen in the Summer. The jump in the lake or sit back reminiscence of Summer air. I don't like to be confined and sometimes school feels that way. Sending them back means rough mornings ( some of them in the beginning) It means less hours of the sun and more time working. I know, I know life can't always be continuously carefree and fun days and we must earn them through hard work and concentration. Deep down it is just knowing for hours through the day I am going to miss them like ... well like something I can't explain.
In the end I know I did everything I could to make this Summer an unforgettable one and one to really put in the books for their little hearts to create from. I am just being a selfish mom who counts down the time to see their faces again. School in a week means time to buckle down and get our bodies aligned to the hours and our minds set for a successful year. Time to plan and save for the trips that will set our hearts free to accept new parts of the world. It is a cycle I suppose is good to have even though I hold the brakes hard during this week coming up.
Here is to a new school year, new things to learn and more growth than I can give them, new teachers to love and new friends too. 2019-2020 year I know you are coming and are going to be amazing, just take it easy on this mama!