A penny in your doorway

Are you doing the things that make you happy? Enjoying the presence of those you love? 

I can tell you this right now, you can never really be doing too much of these things. I, myself have lacked in this area for a very long time. I have overworked myself, served myself and made every excuse to keep pushing myself farther. In return my life has been full of "why don't we get to hang out anymore?", "when is there time for me?", "Can you write me into your schedule so we can go grab lunch?"  
These are things you really don't want to hear but need to hear when you suddenly go missing. I fully immerse myself in one part of my life so deeply that I forget to put down the shovel that dug this whole and now I need help getting out. Sometimes those comments remind you to snap out of the perfection you can never build. This is a reminder that I also am not taking time for myself, to enjoy the people I love, the things I love doing to cook for myself, to take a moment for me and listen to the birds. I am learning how to "do you" thing. 
I wonder what other people do to unwind, to become human again. 
I say this all delirious with the flu, but seriously being human again sounds awesome ( zombie feels) 
So some of my goals this year happen to be,
1. Connect- Connect with people who help build who I am 
2. Work- Work with limits and goals are not meant to be so high you can't reach them but you find a smarter path than jumping up and down hoping you catch the tail. 
3. Breathe- Breathe fast, slow, hard, Breathe accordingly, it's all oxygen and you can get yourself through anything. 

Ultimately I am going to be paying myself in time. Allowing time for the things that matter the most, balance the scales and putting eggs in different baskets.  No matter what your journey is be sure you are allowing yourself happiness, strength, determination. 

I too, struggle with a balance but am learning to be the best version of me. I will allow myself to be human, I mean I am one well oiled machine but I must fill my cup to be able to pour to others. Just as you must remember to be yourself, strengthen yourself and then share. This is my reminder to pay myself, I must put a penny in my own doorway.